The timing of the accusation, her fuzzy details surrounding her “most traumatic event,” her own witnesses refuting her claim, her lack of family support, her previous counseling sessions when she didn’t mention Kavanaugh by name are a few of the reasons my initial response was to not believe Christine Blasey Ford. Adding to the above was her silence. I was a teenage girl once myself. Teen girls tell things to other teenage girls.
But I wanted to hear her side of the story told under oath. While listening to her account, I felt her lack of tears while “crying” was contrived, but I felt she spoke with enough boldness to think she may be telling her version of the truth…perhaps she did get groped at some point in the manner she described. I also figured she drank far more than the one beer she claimed…if she can’t remember the basic details of an alleged assault or how she got home afterwards, can she really recall how many beers she drank on that day 36 years ago?
What I hadn’t said to anyone, but thought was “Good grief, I was groped as a teenager, more than one time. I was also once pinned down….” and my life wasn’t ruined. I have mentioned the incidents including names over the years, and none of my details are fuzzy. I recall clearly. But I’m not her, I reminded myself. We all handle things differently. Her claim of life-long ruination seemed a bit extreme to me, but who am I to judge her reaction? Since then, others have commented along these lines, so I feel it is acceptable to pull from my own experiences.
The second and third accusers don’t merit discussion at this point. I believe everyone was expecting someone else to come forward once the proverbial ball began rolling. But surely they expected someone to bring much stronger claims and evidence to the table. If that was the plan, it backfired “bigly.” I’m not saying anyone had a plan, but the thought has admittedly crossed my mind. I kept waiting for an accusation that was, at the very least, from this century.
After Dr. Ford told her story, I felt Judge Brett Kavanaugh telling his was going to be a waste of time. What could he possibly say? How can one defend oneself against allegations with no solid details to refute? But I imagine no one planned on a young man keeping a diary and calling it a calendar, and having a long history of keeping detailed calendars. His response was given, at times in angry indignation…my mother would describe his response as “having his righteous dander up.” He was believable. Where she came across as “maybe something happened,” he made it clear that nothing happened. His inability to speak at times while trying to compose is what happens to me, so I could relate. Given his career of high positions and his various FBI investigations related to those positions, along with the lack of accusations after or during said other appointments to high offices, I gave more credence to his side than her side before testimony. In fact, after hearing his side compared to her side, I am more inclined to believe she is lying.
No one’s mind was changed because of yesterday’s sworn testimonies. Those who are liberal minded believe her, conservatives believe him. My very scientific Facebook “After The Testimony” poll was exactly what I expected. My liberal friends chose her, my conservative ones chose him, and there were more “His Story” supporters because I have more conservative friends.
This is a no-win situation. People jumped on their respective bandwagons from the beginning, and very few people, if anyone, is budging. America’s division is even greater. Women do lie. Victims make mistakes. Men do assault women, and women assault men. But in this case, it appears Kavanaugh is guilty by association…association with Donald Trump, that is. Due to lack of details and corroboration, all we have is opinion, not truth. Opinion is the new law of the land…we cannot let pesky facts get in the way. I believe Brett Kavanaugh will be confirmed soon…we shall see.